Surprisingly ok.

I'm doing ok about the negative. And now I'm on cycle day 1 and it's Christmas. So tomorrow I have to call the clinic and get my clomid and ovidrel prescriptions ordered and picked up so u can start taking them Tuesday!

Third times a charm? Hope so!!!

Tested

And got a no. Yep a big no!!! It sucked. I was thinking and feeling a positive. Then to see the words "not pregnant". Ugh. So I went to the store and decided to buy more tests. I only had one left. So I got the 5 pack thinking that I could test Sunday and probably a couple Monday. Welllll imagine my sadness when I used the bathroom after getting back from the store and saw pink. Ugh again? Really? Universe. Right after I got 5 tests. So now I'm thinking how annoying it is that it's Friday before Christmas and I'm getting my period 3 days early! And that Monday sometime in the middle of my class I have to call my clinic to get clomid ordered. And plan an ultrasound.

So apparently all the nausea and cramping were all symptoms I imagined. Sweet.

Don't think I haven't considered implantation bleeding. I just don't think that at day 11/12 it's a possibility. I typically spot a few days before my cycle starts soooo this is typical. And I may need to talk to the dr about it because I'm thinking it's not great that my body does that.

Ok I will not let this ruin my Christmas. I know that we'll have a baby by next Christmas and I'm excited for that.

Almost done

Well my 2 weeks is almost up. It's official on Sunday/Monday. Sunday will have been 2 weeks but Monday is the day my cycle starts over. I've felt cramps off and on this 2 weeks and have just not felt right. Not sure what that means. Now today I feel bloated. Bad. And am thinking it might be bad sign. So we'll see. I told Brenda that I wouldn't test early and I know I shouldn't. At the same time I just want to know. I'll see how I feel tomorrow morning. See if I want to test day 11/12.

IUI #2

We had our second IUI yesterday. (By second I don't mean 2 in one month, I mean our 2nd EVER). It actually went really really well.  I wasn't nervous at all, and I felt so relaxed.  It made it better that the doctor I really really like was the one who did the IUI.  I felt so relaxed. 

Last night then we went to see Tonic Sol Fa an acapella group that we LOVE.  It was such a wonderful day.  And really our whole weekend was really good.  Sunday night we saw the Messiah and it was just amazing.  I love great music!

So now I have one day down and 13 left :) and yes I'm still at peace and relaxed and ready for the baby!

Away we goooo

And another shot. It's such a strange feeling to give yourself a shot. I've given a ton of subq injections but when it's to yourself it's strange.

I've kept a positive attitude this month.

"I'm at peace and am relaxed. It's my month to conceive. We're ready!"

Monday morning you sure look fine!

We had the ultrasound today and had one good sized dominate follicle.  We could either do the IUI on Sunday or Monday, and we opted for Monday.  We've done one on a weekend before and we've had to go to another place to do it and get the spermcicle shipped there and it was a bit of a hassle.  So we decided that Monday would be the winning day.  As it turns out Monday is my half birthday and we're able to get in with the doctor that I absolutely LOVE.  So maybe this is luck on our side?!

I am feeling confident and keeping a positive attitude about it.  Most days at least once I repeat to myself "this is my month/cycle to conceive.  I am at peace and ready for this baby.  We are ready for this baby!".  I figure that it can ONLY help the situation if I am positive.  Whenever I have any doubt slip in I just repeat that in my mind.  It actually helps me relax too!


In other news Christmas and Graduation are right around the corner.  I am thrilled that my graduation is coming up, but feeling frustrated about finding a job.  At times I feel like there won't be a job for me because so many places want experience and/or a preceptor experience.  I won't have either.  I am keeping positive that some people are going to retire and open up jobs for ME.  I am trying to stay relaxed about that too, BUT on the other hand I am just trying to forget about work for now until I actually pass AND pass NCLEX-RN.

Clomid

Today was my last clomid pill. Really I haven't noticed many symptoms except feeling edgy. I've had a bit of a short fuse. I've also felt more tearful but only at sappy things, like the little kid choir at church or tv shows.

So now we wait, my eggs grow and we check them on Thursday.